I posted my Thursday update and then wandered off, and came back to such lovely support! Thank you so much, I truly appreciate the concern. :)
Now, I do have an unfortunate tendency to be too hard on myself. Very true, well spotted. However, this diet is actually working against that tendency, not with it, and I think I should have explained it better when I posted it.
Monday to Friday the rules are no sweets, no snacks, no seconds. That's intended to be a hard line, beyond which one does not cross. On weekends and holidays, though, those things are no longer against the rules.
As I work through the days with this, I'm beginning to really get why the rules are the way they are. When you eat only three meals in a day, you really pay attention to them. I'm naturally finding myself eating more fruits and vegetables, just because not having them on the plate just looks wrong. I ate some Christmas cookies this weekend, and a few chocolates, which is perfectly acceptable and I enjoyed them. Even better, I found myself not stuffing in more even though I know I won't get them until next weekend, because I'm used to one meal and then stopping eating.
Have I lost weight? I think so but I'm not sure as I'm not weighing myself. I do feel a little smaller in spots. But what's better is that I feel better. So that rocks.
So it's discipline for the regular days and freedom on the other days. That's why I wasn't able to say that I did Thursday 'right', because I broke the rule. But I do know that as rule-breaking goes, it's barely visible without a microscope, and by no means did I beat myself up for it. :)
I've been off-line this weekend, just for a nice change. This coming week was supposed to be another "one Aardvark a day week" but it won't be.
BECAUSE I HAVE MY AARDVARK! :) I had a weird dream Thursday night and woke up all freaked out, and just as I started to go back to sleep I realized the dream was my Aardvark, and that's it. :) And I know for sure it's the one I want to pursue because a) I don't want to talk about it at all (even Mr. W knows nothing more than "it's about that weird dream I had"), b) I keep imagining scenes, c) I can HEAR her, hear how she sees her world.
Interesting question to ponder: would the Aardvark dream have happened had I not been putting weeks into working on Aardvarks already? I suspect not so much.
I am SO far behind on reading my blogs it's not even funny. I apologize wholeheartedly. I miss you guys! :)